Work this Fall has been crazy and busy. I've drove school buses more than I've wanted, but what was necessary. In the midst of the craziness I survived, dog/house sat, visited Hawaii and did a couple of things I probably wouldn't have done in previous years and especially at a younger age.
I've come to a conclusion that I have to be me in all that I do and if a guy doesn't respond to what I do then it's not meant to be. What have I got to loose? Nothing. I suffer through the long painful process of wondering if a guy likes me and when it comes to my realization that they don't it's too late and I've invested to much of myself and the guy has invested nothing.
I became good friends with Spring/Summer guy after he apologized for last summer. In the 2 months that followed we talked a lot and I thought we were just friends. But I started realizing that I couldn't wait to see him each week and when he brought another girl with him to my house, it hit me how attached I was. Not sure why I do that, but it's obviously my personality. So the first of September I decided to let him know I had feelings for him. It went well, and we talked about it. I expected him to avoid it and and avoid me. That didn't happen we talked about it more than I thought we would and he asked to remain friends and to not have me avoid him if possible. At least I know where I stand and where I go from here. If I need to pull away to let my more than friends feelings for him end, then that's what I do. I'll let you know how it goes.
Then I met a guy at a party and had a really good time talking to him and getting to know him. He is a friend of a friend of mine. So when you don't have a direct connection of your own with someone it's harder to see them and get to know them. I had hopes of seeing him at a birthday party a couple weeks later but he didn't come. I asked our mutual friend what I should do and she didn't know. So I did something about it. I found him on facebook and sent him a message. It was simple, I hoped he remembered me, asked if we could get to know each other, and said that there was no expectations or pressure. That was last Monday 11/22/10 and he hasn't responded...Upside is that his not responding is probably because he is not interested, so I save myself from investing time and energy in him.
I just have to keep getting out and going places to meet new people and experiencing life!
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Had to post this! Hope you enjoy and Laugh like I did!
Last months potluck was about 2 weeks ago and I forgot to post the highlights of the evening. Sad to say that usually one event...one very interesting event has to set the tone for the rest of the evening. And this time it had to happened within the first 5-10 minutes of arriving.
I arrived with Alicia and Marianne and we are usually the first to show up cause Alicia is in charge. So we arrived and 3 guys arrived shortly after. They did not come together but all arrived with Jello as their offering for the potluck. I like jello so that's not the issue. They all started in on who's jello was better by whether it was homemade, bought at the store or had fruit in it, and it even went as far as whose was Celestial and who's was Telestial jello. Did they think we would be impressed by this very odd display of male flirting?
Well I had, had enough by about 4 minutes as well as Alicia and so we both made a not so sneaky exit for the family room and couches. That left Marianne to deal with the whole jello conversation and finding her own way to sneak away. And I didn't have to talk to any of them the rest of the night.
My next favorite was a guy asking me about my ideas on relationships and other honest things about what I thought, and seconds after finishing he got up and left me sitting on the grass never to return. Hey he's the one who asked the questions I was just honest. Will they ever learn. The interesting part was that about 30 minutes later I caught him staring at me from the deck above and smiled at me. So why did he so abruptly leave??? Whatever.
Then conversations turned to everyone's worst dates and while doing this a guy pulled up a piece of grass next to me and we talked for the rest of the evening. That actually made the end of the evening the best part. He was easy to talk to and we had fun getting to know each other. Now if I could just talk and get to know guys like him the evening would turn out a whole lot better and I wouldn't want to avoid a huge population of males. :)
I'm wondering where the one for me is hiding? I'm getting annoyed with playing hide and go seek!
