DISAPPOINTMENT

Disappointment: v. to fail to do or be equal to what was hoped or desired or expected by.

This is a word that I've become more and more familiar with in the passing years and I most often feel it with the male species. I often wonder why finding someone to like me that I like for even 5 minutes is so impossible or unreachable. I get so excited about someone and think I could spend time with them and get to know them...But it doesn't usually get to that. I probably analyze the next encounters too much...why? because there is an interest on my part. And maybe by doing so I try too hard when I see them again because it's not as good or as natural as it was the time before, or he wasn't as friendly as I hoped he would have been, and it makes me wonder what I did wrong and for a brief second wonder what's wrong with me.

They should have lessons on flirting and dating cause I think I may have missed the boat somewhere?

Feeling disappointment is almost detrimental at times, and it makes you stop and think about how it's easier just not getting interested in anyone, because then you don't feel more alone than you already did. What's important is picking yourself up and having confidence to do it again, knowing the possible outcome. It just makes me more cautious and more guarded which probably isn't the best thing, but a coping mechanism.

FAITH: n. Reliance or trust in a person or thing.

I've still got some so I'll continue to hope and act on faith!